we'll make them so jealous.

i never update but yeah if i did oh the stories you would have to read.

2007-07-23T04:57:02Z

but for now hit me up

fakexoxsmiles @ 2006-12-23T23:34:00

2006-12-24T04:39:03Z

eh i haven't updated in a while, i'm so busy i never really go online.
school is so much fun, i got my extensions sewed in on friday. i'll be an intermediate jan 8th, its just flying by. i'm doing really well and the teachers are amazing. christmas is here and josh is sick =[ i hope he gets better by tomorrow. i bought him so much stuff and me and him bought phil and brian so much stuff. i really hope i get a new mannequin head so i can practice more. i just dyed my sisters hair and now i have to cut it. i did so much today im exhausted i cleaned i wrapped presents phil came over and curled my hair for tomorrow and i'm so tired. i can't wait to see what josh got me i know one of the presents is a digital camera it has to be. tomorrow is my christmas eve party i love it so much every year, last year was the best with josh there. phil and brian are coming too. well merry christmas everyone.

love, jenn

yo. def not getting responses on here but oh well.

2006-09-07T05:10:13Z

if you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. it can be anything you want- good or bad. when you're finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or moritified) about what people remember about you.

fakexoxsmiles @ 2006-07-30T18:52:00

2006-07-30T22:53:53Z

i had the most amazing vacation.
i have the most amazing boyfriend and friends.

i don't care

2006-07-26T07:19:44Z

i'M GONNA STAY 18 FOREVER..

ahh like 20 hours and it's my birthday.

ahhh getting older scares me sometimes.

made for eachother.

2006-07-13T06:28:01Z

vacation for birthday to seaside. i'm so excited.
we got an apartment there for our sweet little vaca.
it'll be josh, jen, jess, mike, matt, and me.
yess.
can't wait for the beach and the pool, and the celebrating.
finally have friends that want to do stuff besides be gay.
ahhh. yes.

ok well goodnight.

xo

my birthday is this month yay.

2006-07-03T06:46:40Z

pretty rough weekend.
friday was fun, went to my cousins grad party.
nicee, drank martinis all night, got smashed.
went to emily's loft by the park and drank more.
it was pimps and hoes night. i wasn't that hoeish.
everyone got really tired josh fell asleep, theres a pic on my myspace of it lol. he fell asleep on the dog bed.
saturday i went to josh's aunts house in SI, almost had a panic attack when his aunt started lecturing me on school and doing something with my life, literally almost cried but i tryed to hide it the best i could. god i need help.
so that kinda killed my night since i was on edge.
lots of stuff happened at emilys.
led me to laying in bed all sunday, tossing, turning, crying, walking in the rain, finally getting through, finally put stuff behind me for once.
tomorrow is a new day and i'm so thankful to have such an amazing boy in my life.

ok that's all.

that's what i fell in love with.

2006-06-17T16:00:46Z

so last night i got a little tipsy if you will at jess' with everyone. oh good times.
got home at 4am. passed out. woke up at 9:30, cable is down again, decided to watch the notebook and cry my little blue eyes out. oh life. my brother made me and richie breakfast and it was goood.
now i'm gonna go tan and then get ready to go out and see my lovely boyfriend later. i dyed my hair yesterday its coffee and it looks amazing.

ok that is all.

thank god i found you.

2006-06-12T05:47:53Z

it's been a year since me and josh's first kiss. ahh i love him to death.
anywho so heres a brief description of my weekend in pictures..

jenn and jen pictures.
we're amazing.

loveee<3

saturday night was crazy. we met up with jen and jess, lenore, kelly, joe and everyone, went to jess', we all left went to chris', drank drank drank, josh's friends had a keg, we all moved the party over there. all in all i was a social butterfly became bestfriends with everyone, got beer on me when joe fell into the keg, kept hugging jess, somehow got a keg into josh's room with him at like 4am, fell asleep at josh's at around 6am. thats just minor details. best beginning of summer party so far.

yeah this picture scares me. chris.
we look like crack babies.

friday night...

i call this i hate playing bullshit with jennifer pellicano. "someone put a gag in her mouth, she's cheating!"

hey look its joes arm.

exhausted.

2006-06-10T22:50:21Z

last night was crazy. went to jess' around 10 with jen and josh bought a bottle of pinot cuz im classy, got josh a bottle of soco, and we got trashed with everybody and we were just having an amazing time, kelly, lenore, matt, mike, emily, and kellys bf were there, they're such good people. i can't drink beer, it's making me sick, they all drink beer at her house. then me and josh left at like 2 and went back to his house, <3, he drove me home with like his eyes closed cause he was so tired at lile 4, i made him drink black coffee when he got to my house lol, i stayed up until 6 so i could wake him up since i kept him up, i felt bad. then i slept like all day. now i'm getting dressed to go lucky 13 saloon with everyone, some kids band is playing, i dunno gay. whatevs. i'm so tired. ok that's all.

love yas.

ah its june.

2006-06-01T07:15:24Z

got up, tanned in the backyard, josh came over, made him dinner<3, went to his house, he took a shower, cant say wat happened then lol, watched tv, fell asleep, then met up with ms pellicano, met some amazing girls, which is rare cuz i usually dont like girls, hung out at her friend jessica's house for quite a while, i loved the dog, they were drinking when i got there, then jen called us both cabs got home and im soo tired. time for bed. yess sir. gotta go buy my mom a birthday present tomorrow, got my new capital one credit card in the mail yesterday<3 its soo lovely. that's about it.

xox

just so you're all aware.

2006-05-13T06:55:30Z

i just made a huge friends cut.

so if you didn't make it..

a) i don't have the slightest clue who you are.

b) i don't like you aka we're not really friends.

c) i don't need you lurking me, if you want to do that just go on myspace. obv.

d) all of the above.

k thanx.

yay.

2006-05-09T01:41:49Z

i have an interview on wednesday.

i'm in a good mood.

<3

random.

2006-04-03T06:59:46Z

so saturday night me josh and anthony went to jess' house and drank like fishes.
anthong is leaving in like a week or something, crazy kid.
it was pretty random we were outside anthonys talking to him -
jess called wanting to drink so we drove over there bought 4 six packs and drank our little hearts out.
i got pretty drunk i was gay and apologize for embarassing myself.
anyways i had fun, we all did pretty much.
i love randomness like that. well the randomness it has come to be anyways.

but i still hate drinking.
but i cant stop once i start.
anyways today was beautiful. the weather was amazing and i played with the rabbits with daniel and my fam.
had a good time with josh cause he makes me happy all the time. we were playing baseball with daniel and it was just funny. cuz my hand fit in the child size glove and the bats were way tiny.

the sopranos makes me wanna kill myself this season. its sucking.

i've gotten really bad at this whole updating thing.

they're boring i know.

i'm getting a tattoo on tuesday with jess.
hot.

that is all.

oh god i need a job.

love,

jenn

sses class of 2001 congratulations we're all fuck ups in our own ways!

2006-03-16T05:47:16Z

so i've been looking for a job for the last 2 weeks.
it sucks.
nothing is working out.
the only thing that's getting me through all of this shit is josh.
i'm so thankful that i have him.
he makes everything so much better.
he makes me smile.
i love smiling.
i love laughing.
i love how he can do stupid little things and make me laugh just like that.
i love him so much.
just thinking about him makes me smile.
if you find someone who understands you from the moment you strike up a conversation with them, keep them around.
never let them go, love is amazing. happiness never felt so good before i met him.
home is what you make of it,
as far as i'm concerned i live in a cold house and josh is my home.

fakexoxsmiles @ 2006-02-24T03:15:00

2006-02-24T08:15:53Z

i love my boyfriend more than anything.
oh and i got a new laptop and its beautiful.
that's all.

<3

fakexoxsmiles @ 2006-01-05T18:31:00

2006-01-05T23:36:47Z

i havent updated in a while. christmas was amazing. i got a puppy named gizmo from josh<3 also an idog and a new nextel <3 love him. his mom got me a bcbg bag. my mom got me a ton of stuff including a north face hah. jen got me the juicy horseshoe charm and crown earrings. love love love them. hmm theres other stuff but im to lazy to type it all. anyways new years eve was crazy. the party at my house was amazing we were all drunk and happy. so i'm going to the open house on tuesday for empire beauty school i'm pretty excited about it. i really hope i like it. it's pretty close too. well anyways that's all and after tuesday i have to figure out about getting a job and what not.
i need money jen & josh both have birthdays coming up.

oh well
love ya
bye

fakexoxsmiles @ 2005-12-18T03:07:00

2005-12-18T08:03:32Z

got this from uwishedtheused's journal.. thought it was cute...

Dear Santa...

Dear Santa,

This year I've been busy!

In July I helped fluffytwinkies see the light (8 points). In March I caught a purse-snatcher who stole crazieemegg's purse (30 points). Last Monday I signed my organ donor card (28 points). Last month I bought porn for __j_vicious (-10 points). In April I committed genocide... Sorry about that, undecidedd (-5000 points).

Overall, I've been naughty (-4944 points). For Christmas I deserve a lump of coal!

Sincerely,
fakexoxsmiles

fakexoxsmiles @ 2005-12-13T05:00:00

2005-12-13T09:58:48Z

random things you didn't know about me.

2005-11-03T11:34:53Z

1.I really love animals. I've had about 50+ rabbits at one point. I used to have a pet duck named quackers. He ate spaghetti. I've had like every animal possible because my dad loved them too.
2.I never felt like I belonged in school, never felt that high school connection with my "friends" there. Never felt like they gave a shit about me at the end because apparently I lost them or maybe they just never liked me at all and played along, all except for Jessica.
3.No matter what anyone says Jessica Lee Gillen is my bestfriend and no one can ruin that. She knows me better than I know myself, we have that sort of connection most people wish they had with their friends.
4.I don't have many regrets in life.
5.My boyfriend and I could of met sooner, like 4 years sooner, we went to the same parties in elementary school and he used to hit on my exbestfriend. crazy. Neither of us remember seeing eachother though.
6.I'm still convinced he wouldn't of liked me back then.
7.I love him to death. I'm positive that he's my soulmate.
8.I've felt more for one person in the past 4 months and some odd days than I have ever in my life so far.
9.I like to write a lot, especially in the middle of the night, I have notebooks stacked with things I've written about everything possible.
10.As of right now I have no idea what I want to do with my life and it scares me to death. I have suggestions but no solid ideas that I'm confirming.
11.I'm convinced I have some sort of socializing problem, I'm ridiculously shy around people I don't know and get stuck talking to and just look like a moron, unless I'm drunk or somewhat comfortable around them.
12.I like poetry a lot.
13.charles bukowski is my favorite poet.
14.I'm a big fan of Chuck Palahniuk.
15.I used to be a big "scenester, hipstir" whatever you want to call it.
16.From freshman year to about spring of senior year I went to atleast one show a week, if not more. I made a lot of friends that way and never had to pay to go into them.
17.I know way too much about music.
18.My life is completely different now, I hardly go to shows anymore.
19.Two years ago I joined this thing called myspace.com and no one was on it really and now its a fucking empidemic and I made a name for myself on it. I have a ridiculous amount of friends. I'm BROOKLYN.
20.I would go to shows and have guys coming up to me asking if i was jenn/brooklyn from myspace. once i had a bunch of them screaming my name so i ran the other way with jess.
21.Sometimes I regret having it still.
22.I really don't want to get a job, I've been putting it off for months.
23.I met this girl named Shannon at a show and we both stold tee shirts from a little scene boy and it was bfffff at first site. i miss her.
24.I don't sleep at night - but I can sleep all day if you let me.
25.I hate talking on the phone but I'm always on one.
26.I hate texting more.
27.I do enjoy downloading ringtones though.
28.I used to want to take up photography but all my cameras broke so I took it as a sign.
29.I cant actually sing really well, but I'm too shy most of the time to do it infront of people i don't know very well.
30.I always wanted to join the choir in school but never had the balls to. I was in the chorus in elementary school.
31.I was in a band for about a day once. I sang. It ruled. Jess pretended to play bass. It was so funny.
32.People always think they know who I am or how I am but I tend to surprise them. I'm very hard to read and people tend to think I'm cold hearted or a bitch; I'm actually very emotional& I used to be the most insecure person ever.
33.This is the first year of my life where I feel pretty good about myself and feel a lot less insecure.
34.I enjoyed doing this.

love.

2005-11-01T11:09:49Z

i love him so much. he means so much to me.

i really don't know where i'd be right now if he wasn't in my life. he came right when i needed him the most. i'm so thankful that i have him. <3

ok nite nite.

pictures.

2005-10-30T16:49:53Z

sitting in josh's room.

my bed.

me and poochie.

i like this one.

at the movies.

my scared face at the movies. we saw the fog. hah.

yep that's all.

cutest kid ever.

2005-09-18T07:31:39Z

love.

2005-08-31T07:13:11Z

i can sit here
and just think
about how much
i love you
and how you
love me back
the same way
and
smile at the
thought of
how happy
you make
me.
we belong
together.
we challenge
eachother.
we don't
mind it.
everytime we
kiss i feel it;
it's like
that crazy
soulmate
stuff
you see
in movies
and hear
about in
cheesy
love songs.
you agree.
<3

i swear i'd burn this city down to show you the lights.

2005-08-01T06:10:59Z

so much has changed in a little over a month.
i'm happy.
i love life right now.